Situations don't turn out favorably, but life has been somewhat enjoyable for the past few weeks. I really thought there was something there. But I guess feelings are fleeting. Too much so... I guess I learned another lesson. Shouldn't have given that person so much power over my feelings. Doesn't affect me too much now though I guess. Maybe my reaction is just self-preservation? haha. I am an awkward and weak and frightened person. I can't even do this right. I have no motivation to clear anything up. But jeez, seriously. Does he hate me now or something? I wonder what happened. oh well... anyway. Like I said, life has been pretty good. I guess only in terms of mood though. It's kind of a calm feeling. Calm before the storm. Next few weeks will be torturous like hell. I've started checking the mail everyday. Here we go again. Some things really bother me and piss me off everyday, but I'm trying to not let it get to me. I'm gonna enjoy these last few months aight Other random things currently happening: I've been inspired for a lot of random crap in art!!! It's exciting. Gotta get a lot done before IB testing. Ahh exciting. gotta collect toilet paper rolls too I started practicing to drive -_- barely passed written test, and driving test is in 2 weeks, it's definitely not happening I am constantly attached to my ipod for hours again. It's nice just being able to have the freedom to enjoy music again. Thanks to new music and stuff etc. It's nice~~ makes me happy~~ Convention season is coming up!!! Key Club Dcon end of March (which I'm actually really excited for now, gotta represent!), Emerald City Comic Con (which I'll be going to even if I must do so by myself, gotta meet DKK once and for all. Nobody I know is nerdy enough to come to a comic book convention with me -_-) first weekend of April, then Sakura-con the week after that. I don't know man I have a feeling this might be my last spring in WA for a while so I want to check it out again okay don't judge me. lol Wanna start practicing the guitar again. I actually want to seriously (but not seriously seriously) write music now :< Lots of ideas and stuff for everything nowadays. I've been inspired (but by what i dunno)! It's a creative time for me so I'm definitely gonna take advantage of it and ignore hw and grades :) to tell you the honest truth i don't think i'm gonna get into cornell. it's nice thinking about it really happening though |